Dear Unborn Baby,
Today was our second opportunity to see you. You looked so peaceful lying there. Today your shape was much more obvious, and we got to see your little stumps of arms and legs. I stared at the monitor screen (and again, got a little teary), completely awed by your subtle movements.
You are now 2.59 cm long. Your heartbeat was amazingly strong, and this time one of the pictures they gave us has the charting of each beat.
The doctor changed your due date to March 29. Before they had given us a date range. Your father still thinks that you will be born on April Fool's Day.
I have gained a whopping 1 pound. I am pleasantly surprised by this, because I thought it would be at least 5 pounds since my belly is expanding enough that my pants are uncomfortable.
We cannot wait to find out if you are a boy or a girl. We still have a few weeks before we can find that out, but it has been fun to speculate. We know what your name will be if you are a girl. If you are a boy - well, let's just say we still have some more discussion on that. It's tradition in your dad's family to have juniors. I don't like this idea, and I believe I have convinced your dad about this now. You'll thank me in your teenage years.
We are still really, really scared. I think this is normal for all first-timers (and maybe even for some several timers), but 7 years of waiting for you makes us paranoid. We try so hard to be careful in everything that we do.
All our family is thrilled and cannot wait to meet you. You are going to be so loved.
04.09.2004 - 08.28.2007
It's hard to believe that it has been a whole year since beautiful, sweet, charismatic 3-year-old Lillie passed away from this life. Please remember her parents and sisters as they mark this painful anniversary. Lillie's mom, Michelle, still maintains a Caring Bridge site in Lillie's honor. This site chronicles her story in a beautiful and heartbreaking way. You can learn more about Neuroblastoma and the fight against it by visiting The Loneliest Road Campaign.
Dear Unborn Baby,
Today I saw you for the first time. The doctor didn't even have to point you out on the screen. I knew you immediately. This probably has something to do with the fact that I have been studying everything that I can find about you on the internet since we found out about your existence.
I know that this week your nose, mouth and ears are beginning to tape shape. Your organs are still forming. You are about the size of a lentil. Dr. F confirmed that today. We found out you are .35 cm in length.
I have been afraid about your location because of my progesterone levels being border-line low. Today's ultrasound revealed that you are perfectly placed. I almost jumped off the bed when we saw that. I had prepared myself for the worst, and for once in this journey, everything is perfect.
When I saw you, I cried a little. We have waited so long for you, and every precious moment like this makes our battle for you worthwhile. You are still so, so small, but we love you very, very much.
We got to hear your tiny heart beat. It was the most beautiful sound that I have ever heard. Words cannot express the emotion in my heart as I heard that gentle "whoomp, whoomp". We could see the pumping of your heart on the screen, and each movement reminded us of the miracle that you are.
For the last few days, you have been trying to make sure that I know about your existence. I'm queasy a lot now, and very, very tired. But I promise you that I will do my best to make your journey to life the best it can possibly be.
It's still very early on, and we could still lose you, but today's results significantly increased our hopes. You will always mean the world to me no matter what happens.
Releasing this month:
- Brown, Sandra - Smoke Screen. (8/12)
- Burke, Alafair - Angel's Tip. (8/19)
- Clark, Mary Jane - It Only Takes a Moment. (8/5)
- Coben, Harlan - Fade Away. (8/26)
- Cook, Robin - Foreign Body. (8/5)
- Coonts, Stephen - The Assassin. (8/19)
- Frey, Stepehn - Forced Out. (8/5)
- Kellerman, Faye - The Mercedes Coffin. (8/12)
- Meyer, Stephenie - Breaking Dawn. (8/2) - Book 4 of the Twilight Saga
- Reichs, Kathy - Devil Bones. (8/26)
- Saul, John - Faces of Fear. (8/12)